Dating with my learning disability (Non-verbal Learning Disability) is a topic often discussed. There is not much research on adults with NLD, thus no one knows how we do in relationships. I know of many NLDers who have gotten married or are in successful relationships and I am very happy for them, but I often wonder when will it be my time?
I was always the girl who thought she'd be married young. The one who had a child before they were 25 and would be whisked away happily ever after. Most of it was denial on my part, and not being able to understand how my NLD, my anxiety, and introverted way affected me as a person. The other part of it was boys being typical teenage boys and guys in their early 20s, and having their OWN problems socializing with girls.
I know I am able to hold a relationship. I was in a relationship that lasted a little over a year, but we just weren't compatible romantically (he's still a dear friend of mine and I'm fine with that). After that relationship, I had a brief, yet eye-opening relationship with someone that challenged me to work on myself by breaking up with me. Though I didn't see it at that time, I will be forever grateful for that breakup. It taught me to push my boundaries, not to settle, and most importantly, that I am happy on my own.
After I was recuperated from that breakup (after about a year), I started my journey with online dating. I've met some interesting people by doing that - both good and bad. I've met some nice people, some not so nice people, and people in between. I've had some really crappy dates - which ended up being worth it because of the free food and the fact that it taught me what type of guy that I shouldn't go for. I went on some pretty good dates, that I thought went well, but in the end they weren't meant to be. I'm not going to lie - the rejection after those dates stung and took me a couple days to bounce back from. However, it was a different kind of hurt, because I now know I can be happy on my own.
When I was younger, I thought my happiness depended on relationships - both platonic and romantic. I thought the key to happiness was to be popular and have an awesome boyfriend, but that wasn't the key to happiness. It was being able to love myself, and be happy on my own, when everyone else wasn't there. I will never again believe that I have to depend on someone else for my happiness, because I am truly happy on my own.
